4dp2dt - 29th January 2012

Well I am 4dp2dt, I am so wanting to test. I am putting my progesterone out on the bathroom side in 2 days worth so I feel like I am getting to the end all the time, willing time along. Today I got out today's and tomorrow's which is the end of my 1st pack... One more pack to go which means I am half way there !!!

Its 11am and I am just chilling in bed with the tv on. I have had achy and slight on and off cramps yesterday and slight ache today. I am praying this is implantation? But who knows eh. Feels like the day before my period. But not had the twinges before. I have been googling today, and read nothing but positive outcomes. Everyone's symptoms are different, I so wish our toe nails turned pink when you were pregnant or something to make this journey easier....

I am going up to see my horse today which I am looking forward to. Being in the fresh air and smell of horses !! Don't think Andy will be pleased as he has got to come and help me :-) I am taking NO chances on messing this up.

Another long week ahead of me now. Monday and Wednesday I have dogs to groom and Tuesday I have acupuncture so I am hoping it goes a little quicker than last. I intend to rest up again this week. But will be looking on the net for jobs as I need to go back to work now I can't work with horses.

I am so nervous about testing, I just don't think I can take the bad news and have to wait another 6 months for our 3rd and final try.

Inside I secretly feel positive... And I have a test in the draw I have just remembered. I so want to take it. But it will just be a waste as I am only 7dpo, and will probably show a negative as my levels wouldn't of risen yet.


Oh god damn this wait......

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Egg Transfer Day 25th January 2012

Woohoo our embie has made it to transfer day !!!!

So I don't empty my bladder and am busting for 2 hours. I get into the gown and settles on the bed only for them to tell me they want an empty bladder..it was heaven. So back on the bed ready for transfer.

The embryologist told us it was a top grade 4 cell which we were over the moon at. Our last attempt was a 2//3 grade with lots of fragmentation. I was given a scan to see where my womb was lying and then feet up in the stirrups and it was time. We see our embryo on the screen as they prove it is there and gets sucked into the pipet. The consultant took a while getting it put in the right place, a little uncomfortable but rather he take his time. Then they showed us that the pipet was empty. And that was that, I am PUPO....

We got given a picture after and it is a much better egg than our last try so we have everything going for us to make this work.

I came home grabbing a maccy d's on the way and layed and listened to Zita West post transfer track. I took it easy for the rest of the day and again the next day. Only having an acupuncture session.

I plan to do not a lot but just enough to stop me tempting to test.

FINGERS CROSSED

Results Day 24th January 2012

Got that dreaded call from the embryologist this morning at 8.30am.

They could only inject 1 egg BUT it has fertilised !!!! Soooooooooooo happy.

I have spent all day in bed and booked my acupuncture for Thursday to help keep the little one put. Also been listening to Zita West pre transfer cd.

Back to clinic tomorrow for a 2 day transfer. 2pm Wednesday 25th January 2012

Egg Collection Day 23rd January 2012

It is now 9.36pm Monday night after EC.

Trip up to clinic went well. Got there nice and early. Got settled into our bay, got the gorgeous gown on and got in bed. Andy did his sample and we sat and waited. Got taken down about 10.35am. All drama less. I came around about 11.15am.  Had my cuppa and some chocolate cookies.

Then Michael and the embryologist came round... It didn't sound good. I was told I have 2, maybe 3 eggs. Michael asked if I had endo?!?!?! As a chocolate liquid came out ?!?!?! However he didn't seem at all phased or at all helpful come to that. Basically left us with, if your eggs are no good, we will call you later today after they have been prepared. If they are ok and can be injected, we will call tomorrow with a fertilisation report.

SO, as it stands, I don't know if I have 1,2 or 3 eggs ?!?! It is a horrible wait. No call this afternoon so I am guessing at least one could be injected.  Now I am dreading the call tomorrow morning in case none have fertilised.

I am in quite a bit of pain in my abdomen area. More than I can remember last time. Just hope it eases off tomorrow.

Praying for a good phone call tomorrow xxxxxxxxxx

Day before Egg Retrieval 22nd January 2012

Eeekkk so excited but so scared.

I have had a visit to my acupuncturist this morning and spent the afternoon with my horse. Rode over to Hockley Woods and met the hubby and dog there. It was lovely and Millie (The horse) was VERY well behaved.

Feeling heavy around my overies so I am hoping they are just getting ready for the morning.

Going to have a nice bath and a yummy roast dinner. Nothing for me from midnight except water until 5am so going to stuff my face :-)

Nice early night but I bet I can't sleep .....

IVF #2 January 2012 Result Write Up

IVF #2 JANUARY 2012

CHANGES MADE THIS CYCLE

Regular Acupuncture

Lost 1 and half stone

Exercising

Eating healthy

Relaxing from 2 days before ER all the way through to test date

Listened to Zita West Pre, Post ER and 2ww relaxation CD

Period started - 5th January 2012

1st Scan - 6th January 2012

Follicles -  3 on left - 2 on right

Lining - 4.5mm

2nd Scan - 11th January 2012

Follicles - All follicles 10mm and under

Lining -  5mm

3rd Scan - 16th January 2012

Follicles - 6mm, 7mm, 8mm, 14mm, 16mm

Lining - 11.8mm

4th Scan - 18th January 2012

Follicles - 2 each side. 1 at 10mm and 1 at 17mm same both sides

Lining - 9.8mm (Different sonographer measuring)

Trigger Shot - 21st January 2012 10.15pm

Egg Retrieval - 23rd January 2012 10.15am

Eggs Collected - 3

Eggs Injected - 1

Eggs Fertilised - 1

Eggs Survived - 1

Eggs Transfered - 1

Egg Transferered - 25th January 2012

Test Date - 6th February 2012

Result -

14 Days of 375ml Gonal f - 11 Days of Cetrotide - 500ml Ovitrelle for trigger

IVF #1 July 2011 Result Write Up

IVF ROUND 1

Period started - 1st July

1st Scan - 4th July 2011

Follicles -  3 each side

Lining - 5mm

2nd Scan - 8th July 2011

Follicles - 2 on left around 7mm & right side 7mm, 10mm and 12mm

Lining -  6.5mm

3rd Scan - 12th July 2011

Follicles - few under 10mm & 15mm and 17mm

Lining - 10mm

Trigger Shot - 13th July 2011 9.15pm
Egg Retrieval - 15th July 2011 9.15am
Eggs Collected - 5
Eggs Injected - 2
Eggs Fertilised - 2
Eggs Survived - 1
Eggs Transfered - 1 Grade 3-4 4 Cell and fragmented
Egg Transferered - 17th July 2011
Test Date - 29th July 2011
Result - NEGATIVE
Period - 30th July 2011

9 Days of 375ml Gonal f - 5 Days of Cetrotide - 375ml Ovitrelle for trigger

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18th January Scan

Felt fine going up and as soon as I had scan, I cried....  I had a trainee being observed by Debbie, but she was very nice so wasn't a problem. Lining seemed to of shrunk from 11.8mm to 9.6mm However as it was a different sonographer, Debbie said it was measured different and not to worry cos 9.6mm is still good.

Follicle wise, 2 on each side. One about 16mm and one about 10mm so still not ready for EC. I got sent away with more cetrotide, more gonal f, 2 x ovitrelle, progesterone pessaries and doxcicyclin antibiotics.

I asked about transferring 2 if the eggs are not very good. Debbie said as it is my 2nd go, the embriologist can override the rule if he feels he needs to.

David has asked that I stim for 14 days this time  as it will give all the follies more chance. So now I feel they triggered me too early last round.

I am booked in for EC on Monday 23rd January at 10.15am. Have to be there at 9.45am.

I  have to trigger at 10.15pm Saturday night.

16th January Scan

1pm, Acupuncture - Ouch and tears. Was fine when needles were in, but I hate them being out in. One in top of head, one in forehead, one above each overy and a few in my legs :-(  I have to have 1 more before EC and one after ET.


Todays scan... Follicles had grown, lining had grown. All good news except I dont have many follies. Was told I would probably have a Friday Egg Retrieval. So away I went, after taking piccies of last cycle report and this cycle report. More gonal f and more cetrotide.

My follies were 14mm and 15mm and smaller ones around 6 - 9mm so they need some major catching up.

I was asked by Filiz to come back on Wednesday for another scan to check the progress.

Dad is coming to the scan with me on Wednesday

13th January - Day 7 of stimming

Ok...

Well injections have been going ok. I had my 2nd scan on Wednesday 11th at 2.15pm. Not great news. My lining is 5mm, this time last cycle it was at 6.5mm. I have 2 - 3 follies at around 10mm. So still not many at all.

And the tears start..spend a few hours crying on and off about it. And then started to feel ok again. I have started to think about what if I had to have an egg donor to have a baby. Now the thought is not as bad as I originally thought.

I was given cetrotide aswell to start on Wednesday. So 2 injections each day now. The cetrotide makes my skin itch for a few hours after I have given it.

Booked in for a massage on Sunday to chill me out a bit. I am still keeping the diary empty next couple of weeks.

Back for 3rd scan on Monday 16th at 3.15pm. Dad is coming with me for support. I hope and pray that what follies I have, have grown more. I am expecting egg collection Wednesday or Friday next week.

I can feel my overies aching a little so hope this is good news that follies are growing and I have more than just the 2/3 they see.

Still getting to the gym and drinking lots of water. Would be nice to of lost couple more pounds on this weeks weigh in (but I don't think I have)

The Injections Begin - 7th January 2012

Well...This morning, I gave my first injection. 375 gonal f..

My period finally started on Thursday late evening, with it being the weekend and the clinic being closed, I drove up early Friday. I got there about 9.30am. I finally got seen around 10am for my baseline scan. Filiz informed me that my lining was 4mm which was good but I still only have 3/4 follicles on the left ovary and just 3 on the right. SO pretty much the same as my last cycle. I have only been given the 375 of gonal f again, I think when I go back for the next scan they may up it for a few days if I need it.

I am trying to drink the 2 litres of water each day. trying to stay calm, relaxed and positive. I am taking my horse out for a nice ride today. Only 2 weeks left of riding maybe less so need to make the most of her.

I have acupuncture Tuesday at 4pm. This session will start with the IVF related needle points. So its all systems go.

My sisters, mum and dad have all been supportive with the texts. I am playing it down so I can just hopefully sail through it. Got a bit much last time with some of the messages about testing etc lol. Dont want to make such a big fuss just in case it doesn't work again.

BUT - I AM SURE IT WILL :-) This is my year and my time to get pregnant.......

2nd scan on Wednesday 11th at 2.15pm. Mum is coming with me for this


But for now, I am positive, still getting to the gym and staying hopeful